The Thing About 40
Before turning 40, I heard a lot about how liberating 40 is. How 40 would bring even more confidence and opportunities. Turning 40 would be like becoming myself—like I did in my 20’s, my 30’s—all over again. It would begin a time to re-rediscover me.
I’m 40 and I’m doing things I never thought I would do.
Of all of the many things I do now—and the one I can actually talk about—is asking for money to pursue a project that I believe can change lives. If nothing else my research will allow me to tell stories—it’s what I do—stories that may answer questions of how people connect; how people build families; how people rebuild themselves.
I am applying for and to grants, scholarships, fellowships and every other type of funding in between; I am doing what my grandmother said never to do: asking for money.
And now I have launched my own Kickstarter project; I have prepared a proposal shamelessly asking for funding to help me tell the stories of mothers searching for children; the stories of what happened after the Emancipation; the stories still unfolding today.
And, I’ve put it online for virtually everyone to see.
Confidence to have a dream and dedication to pursuing it; come to think of it, my grandmother would be proud after all.