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February 7, 2009
I spent today sorting out
possibilities. Now that I’ve finished my last class, I don’t know what to do
with all of the time I have without a deadline. I am so used to handling
competing deadlines that I now have to create things to do. This should not be
too hard seeing as now I have the pleasure of justifying my degree.
Today I should be writing and
submitting something to a publication. But, I have some pieces from my thesis
(that always sounds so juvenile) out to editors and I need to see how they fare
before sending them to other publications. It seems self defeating to assume
they are rejected and so, I wait.
I have researched numerous
publications and there are many I would be honored to publish in, to those I
look forward to submitting. There is a thread in that which I read that
suggests I should be happy to publish anywhere and endeavor to write my way up
the publication tier one rung at a time. And yet, I cannot start out with
lowered expectations and call myself a writer.
Can I really submit something to a publication I would never read?
While I wait I look for traditional
jobs, freelance jobs and writing opportunities in my spare time –when I am not
being a mom, working full time or otherwise engaged.
I used to say, I just want to write.
But, after reading job descriptions, posts and calls for submissions, I realize
that is not at all true. I want to write what I want to write. I want to write
psychological articles exploring character motivation and development; short
stories succinctly dissecting relationships, features inspiring people to act,
explore, question. I want to write things that matter to me. Advocating for the
underrepresented population: children, minorities, whoever; getting information
to people who best need it and who are then empowered by it; affecting change,
those are the sort of pieces I want to write.
So, to revise that: I want to write
something I would be proud to have published.